When You Look at Yourself you see Blood and Scars, the pain of the past

Random-ness of all Pork Bun-ness. ^^

Sat, 17 Feb 2007 18:09:46 GMT

Hellooosss! *waves all dramatic like*

>.>
Thought I'll make a note that I am at fullmetalflame5's house...>.> I slept over! WOOTZA!
She most likely wants to kill me...because she wants to see if her edward is on...and I don't want her to and she wants to do thingers on teh computer but I don't want her too...I'm having fun..>>

I don't care though she just turned off the screen but I can type without looking at the screen and seeing what I was writing...and the answer is yes I can type without a key board if i bring up the keyboard on the screen thinger...

Ah I remember those days...I would be too lazy to move the keyboard rollie thinger and I would use my mouse...to rp...AND OMG! Did that take too long...wells...

I guess I'll let her go on Myspace...and I'll go sulk in the bedroom. CUZ SHE DIDN'T WRITE BACK!!!!

Its amuses me to hear her comment as I write this...*sigh* Well then....I can't "shut up" If i'm not talking...don't growl at me...I won't be still with the fingers...

Well that has to be werid for other people to read....ohs wells...

^-^

Hope everyone is having a fantastic weekend...I know I am...*________*
*evil glint in eyes*

I'M GETTING MORE SAIYUKI STUFF...

I WANT A PORK BUN!!! *tackles Kathleen (virtually..too lazy to do it actually)*

YOU OWE ME ONE...>.> meanie....

PORK BUN PORK BUN...! YAY!

yes...well...I'm done...I should go now. ^^

Mucho love to everyone...*tackles*

(Maybe i'll on on my MS...>.> YEA! SANZO!)

Tue, 13 Feb 2007 19:12:49 GMT

R.I.P.
Charles Mike Foley
Feb. 22.
May you rest in peace and know your still loved, and much thought about.

Going on vacation, and going to enjoy life! yay! ^-^
I get to have fun with my friends! Weee!

Have fun and I'll see you all later! ^-^

Don't get mad at me if your offended.

Tue, 30 Jan 2007 15:22:10 GMT

WARNING
THIS POST IS GOING TO BE VERY OFFENDING TO SOME PEOPLE

Due to the fact that this post is VERY long and has alot of offending things I ask that you read with caution. And if you decided to read it...read all of it. I warned you.

I've been writing this for two day...enjoy

I have a lot to say…
>.> <.<

I don’t know if anyone will get offended by what I have to say, but actually I don’t really care. I’m not pointing at anyone in particular…someone people that I am going to be talking about don’t even know what LJ is…so whatever. I don’t expect anyone to agree with what I have to say, I don’t care if you do. But don’t go yelling at me for what I am writing, I never said you had to agree or even like what I am saying.

This Thursday I got in a fight with my parents…and during that fight I realized something that is very true and that makes me very f—king angry.

I do not understand a certain thing about ‘us’. The anime Otakus I guess you should call ‘us’, actually its not really just Otakus but:

We have our own cliché in school, we hang out and blah blah…but what is it about our ‘group’ that we are all F—KING EMO B--TARDS?! What is with all this s—t that your life is so horrible and you want to die. You know what I think about that? If you really wanted to die that badly, you would have done it a long time ago. I don’t want to hear the excuses of why you couldn’t or didn’t. If you wanted to die as much as you said you did then you would be dead. Don’t get me wrong, I am included: if I wanted to die, I would be but I didn’t, so I am still here. Life must not have been that bad if your still hanging on. Things SUCK but something is letting you hold on, and your ‘worst’ pain, could be someone’s easiest pain. I don’t like hearing how one person can’t understand another’s pain, that there pain was worst and all that sh-t. EVERYONE has a different pain, no one can understand each other’s pain, its not possible! NOT! Everyone’s experience is completely different, and you can not match it, or under-grade it because everyone has a different life.

Also something that makes me sick is that everyone has the sudden realization that they are ‘Bi’ and ‘Gay’. I think half of the population that say things like this aren’t. They just want to be like everyone else. I know that some people are actually are ‘bi’ or ‘gay’ but most are there for the attention. That’s what I think. I find it annoying that more then half of the population of ‘us’ are ‘bi’ or ‘gay’ and its only ‘us’ no one else, you don’t find the other clichés of people having the same problem.

And on top of that, everyone has a horrible past. GET OVER IT! The past is that past, the present is the present, and the future is the future. I know it is hard the get over things, some events can have a lasting effect on you, like the fact that I can’t stand being touched by guys. I know this, I live with it, and I’m trying to fix it. I don’t think that you should let the events of something you CAN’T change effect of who you are now! It isn’t right. Why ruin you life, your future over something that happened. You can’t change it, but you can change your future. I’m sick of hearing all the complaining, even about the present times. You can change it if you want, what is the sense of just sitting around crying over it. For example: if your sick of your weight, get off your f-cking fat a-- and DO IT! Don’t cry and waste your time.

Another thing that has me beyond p-ssed off is people who call you ‘friend’ but is a backstabbing a-shole. I f—king hate people like that. It p-sses me off and I think that they need to grow the f—k up! I don’t think that you are a very nice friend if you come over my house and steal my sh-t. Thank you I PAID MONEY! The sad part about this is that maybe if you ASKED! I would have given it to you. I’m a very kind person when it comes to my things…don’t ask why…it cost me a lot to be like this… however when f—king video games and anime and even manga don’t come back, that’s STEALING! I’m not made of money here and I don’t want to hear that you gave it back. I know when I give things out, and when I get things back. I write it down, I have a list. I’m not stupid, I don’t want to hear the B.S. line that you ‘gave it back awhile ago’. BULL FU-KING SH-T!

Well, you are such a nice friend…

I don’t understand what is going through some of your minds. I’m not someone that you can walk all over and I don’t appreciate being your foot mat. I’m human too, and not just someone that you ‘use’ I’m not a product that you can buy, use and throw away. I find myself very insulted by the attitude of a lot of you who like to call me a ‘friend’

It saddens me that some of you people are so immature and rude that you treat me like that. I find that a lot of you are jerks that aren’t worth my time anymore.

There I said what I wanted to.

Oh! And who ever wants to nit-pick at my grammar and spelling mistakes grow the hell up! That is so stupid and only pis-es me off even more. If you have time to pick the h-ll out of my mistakes then I think you ought to look at your own. Oh and don’t bother with the stupid ‘Anonymous’ cr-p. I’m not stupid. I know exactly who the hell you are.

Thanks,

Again I would like to point out that fact that this isn’t directed at everyone, or anyone ‘one’ person, or even someone who will read this. It’s me letting out steam at the pathetic excuse of people’s behaviors.

I don’t really care if anyone is offended, if you are then whatever, maybe it is true. Get over it.

Thu, 25 Jan 2007 16:53:15 GMT

^-^

I have to share this with you:

I'm walking outside of my school and my friend and I are looking for her bus...shes like I have to find bus 4.

I'm like "ok well...*dramatic voice* I have to go there...*points to the distant sky* to the west...holy s--t! THATS WEST!!"

she laughed at me...and I was going on how the library was actually westward...now we couldn't find her bus, we went South, East and then back west. (Ironic...her bust was West)

I walked up to the bus and put me hands out "We've been searching high and low for this bus!" I got a werid look "But I must head there *points to the library direction* WESTWARD!!" and I head off, kinda ...hopping...

SOO! I start westward and i'm thinking "I'm following the great Sanzo Ikkou...just hundreds of years later...darn i'll never catch up! ><"

I continue to mumble "Wellll! I bet you Mr Sanzo didn't have to scale a feild of Goose sh-t! NO OF COURSE NOT! HE DIDN'T WALK!...and when your avoiding the Goose sh-t you stepping into MORE goose sh-t. And when the field of Goose sh-t is over you walk through a SWAMP of Goose sh-t! Then back to the field of Goose Sh-t, then swamp...then back-top...

The things I do to be like you Sanzo-han...

But I am west!!!!!!!!
I made it to the destination!!!!! and it only took me 20 minutes...not years....

I thought a few of you might get a kick out of that...
or maybe i'm just hoping too much...

Artwork

Wed, 24 Jan 2007 17:07:33 GMT

For lamiyao
heres my artwork..or some of it anyway.

KAIKAN PHRASE!

My first EVER Kaikan fanart
T X A

my second ever

not third...but third i put online

TACTICS!

First and only Tactics fanart!

SAIYUKI!!!!!!!!

First try with Dougan...he doesn't get enough love...I like this one alot...

Frist try at Hakkai x Ii Sou...i don't like this one...

Christmas present for my friend.

just a Sanzo sketch

>.> theres a serect about this one.......

my notebook cover...or was...

OMG! ITS THE COVER TO THE FANFICTION I WROTE FOR YOU!!!!!!!!!!

Mwheehee! ZAKURO! I LOVE HIM!!! <33333

I have aLOT more Saiyuki art...but...>.> <.<
too many..........

FULLMETAL ALCHEMIST:

one and only...it went on a clock as a present for my friend. ^-^

GRAVITATION:

Present for my friend on MyOtaku

KINGDOM HEARTS II:

based off an RP I did with my Superior aka Man Sex

Pg 1 of Doujinshi I did for Superior...based off of an RP

Page 2

my favorits Xem X Sai picture ever. I got alot of favs and comments on this one. *_________*

my first try at Xemnas X Saix

OK THATS ENOUGH! I HAVE TOO MUCH ARTWORK! RAWWWR!

Thats all i'm sharing for now...ok? sorry...its not all good...but its fun!